When I first began TTC an year ago, anything baby-related enticed me. I loved peeping into strollers to look at cute sleeping babies. I smiled at women sporting bumps and imagined myself with a bump. I cross-examined friends who had new-borns about their experiences feeding and caring for their little ones. Things are different now. I tear up at the sight of adorable babies, make a U-turn when I spot a pregnant lady from afar, and completely avoid meeting or talking to friends with kids.
In those days when the future looked bright and promising, I bought two baby blankets at an arts and crafts fair. And these are not just any baby blankets. These are the softest, cuddliest, most beautiful hand crocheted blankets. I bought one blue and one pink. The idea then was that I would give them to my friends who were expecting babies. But I fell so much in love with them, that I couldn't get myself to give them to anyone. I knew they were just right for our baby(ies). And I was sure that it wouldn't be long before I got to use them.
Now they sit somewhere deep in my closet...waiting. I knew I shouldn't have jumped the gun and bought anything baby related. I have not made that mistake again since the blankets.
Tell me about the little things that you have picked up on your TTC journey. I hope you and I get to use these things soon....very soon.
I have resisted picking up anything baby related, but I do remember almost buying a dresser for the bedroom that looked like it could have doubled as a change table. It was a beautiful antique wood piece, and I thought "well I'm going to need that soon enough". This was right after I stopped taking the birth control pill - at the time it never occured to me that I might not need it right away.
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ReplyDeleteThe only thing I have bought is a wooden paint-it-yourself wall decoration. It's a lady bug, a snail, and a bee. I haven't been able to bring myself to paint it yet. I keep waiting for that positive pregnancy test that never comes. I hope you get to use your blankets soon!
ReplyDeleteI never did let myself buy anything baby related but when we had our first and only BFP -my boss at work gave me a baby blanket. It was way too early to tell anyone our news but she had to know why I was missing all those work days and wanted to know how our IVF turned. We lost that baby at 6 weeks and that sweet little blanket is buried in the back of my closet. My SIL has had two babies since and so have friends but I can't bear to part with that blanket, its for my baby, even if it stays in the back of the closet for several years.
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ReplyDeleteI've tried as hard as possible to keep from picking up baby related things. One we have is a book about recipes for a vegetarian pregnancy that my DH bought me shortly before we started to TTC. My MIL keeps sending us things for her future grandchildren (despite the fact that she knew we were having problems conceiving) and they have all been stashed in a closet by my DH where I won't have to see them. They just make me sad.
I totally get the pregnant woman envy thing. I still struggle with that. I bought a cute stuffed zebra with the intention of tying the positive pregnancy test round its neck and gifting it to my DH to tell him I was pregnant...it's a very lonely zebra now. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI recently started knitting baby things. Not for anyone specific... just... because. I made a sweater for a friend who's expecting, and I love that you can finish a project in such a short time... so I just kept going. I figure I will gift some and store some others. Hopefully, someday some of the stuff will be used for my own baby.
ReplyDeleteI entered a few contests and won a few baby related things - only for them to sit in storage until we need them. Which we do now! So I guess it worked out! :)
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"the very pretty paralegal"
Other than the books I bought when we first started (Before Your Pregnancy, Taking Charge of Your Fertility, etc) I have resisted buying anything baby-related. I'm kind of superstitious, so I didn't want to jinx anything.
ReplyDeleteWhen my grandmother passed away 3 years ago, we hadn't started TTC yet but we had decided we would soon. My grandmother had a drawer full of baby blankets that she had crocheted over the years. I took a white one just in case--I knew I would want one for our baby and there wouldn't be another chance to get one from her. It still sits wrapped in my top drawer, waiting to be loved and snuggled.
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Hello, I know how you feel of course. Baby clothes and toys used to excite me too, and I LOVED dreaming about our future children. Now I don't even let those thoughts enter my mind. If we don't ever have a child, I know it's a sadness I'll never get over, ever.
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We didn't buy anything because even before we started to try I had the fear it would be so hard. I knew about my stage four endo and how that was going to be a problem. My sister had already had 4IUI's, 1IVF and 1 FET and was starting the adoption process, so I was full of fear. As a matter of fact, even after our positive test we bought nothing. Not a sleeper or a blanket, NOTHING until I was maybe 5-6 months. Not really because we didn't believe it was real, because we did, but really just because I had stayed clear of all baby sections for so long it was hard to break the habit and walk it!
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