Happy Birthday...to me! I complete 29 tomorrow. Accoring to my life plans, I was supposed to be holding a baby in my arms by now. I guess life had other plans.
I am an year older, and maybe a little bit wiser? I now know that I have much less control over my life than I believed I had. I know who my true friends are, and who will support me through highs and lows.I also know that I am the luckiest person in the world to have married my best friend who is a pillar of love and support.
I realize that one's metabolism does indeed slow down with age. What I eat has started accumulating on my abdomen (not that it has stopped me from eating the good stuff).
I am dreading calls from my friends as much as I am looking forward to them. Especially calls from friends overseas with whom I don't get to talk as often. I dread the "baby" question or anything related, but I look forward to catching up.
I am in no mood to celebrate. I thank God for the past year which even though was filled with sadness, was also blessed in many ways. Last birthday, I was excited because 28 was going to be the year I became a mother. This year, I am still hopeful, but also realistic. Who knows what lies ahead?
Happy Birthday girl! Go treat yourself!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to you!!!
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling exactly. I dread my birthday's now only because I do not have a child. I truly believe it would not bother me otherwise.
I hope today is better than you expect and you can enjoy the calls and well wishes
Happy Birthday!!
ReplyDeleteDont be too hard on yourself. I set myself the goal that I would be pregnant by 30. It came and went and before I knew it so did 31!
I used to get relaly down as each birtday loomed and then came to realise, its just a day like any other. I am no different from yesterday and I will be no different tomorrow. But, and this is the big but, everything could change next month or in a few months after that. You will move forward and it will all work out in the way it is supposed to. We are just crap at the being patient thing, and I include myself in particular!!!
Have a lovely day today and the next and the next....!
Happy B-lated birthday. I hope you had a wonderful day, and that you treated yourself.
ReplyDeleteBirthdays can be tough, especially if we see ourselves another year older and still with empty arms. I hope that you are able to blow out some candles and make a very special wish for 2011.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday! I gave you a Blogger Award!
ReplyDeletesomehow I missed this post and therefore missed your birthday. Happy belated birthday! I will be 29 this year also, and am having the same feelings....
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