Monday, November 12, 2012
I want a baby
I want another baby :( I know, like my hands aren't full already. Baby girl is one. I am so ready. But hubby isn't. Sigh. There's another wave of newborns on my FB friend feed. I need to get off FB. Its bad for me.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Almost a toddler
Where did the year go? My baby is almost a toddler. I have always found statements like "they grow up too fast" very cliche. But now I truly know what that means. One day they are tiny little things all warm and content in your arms, the next day they are off exploring the world around them. My baby girl will be 1 in a little over two weeks!
I may have said this before, but the first month when she was in the hospital felt like a year, but after that. time just flew. It has also been almost a year since I left work. I started my maternity leave a year ago, but once we knew of her complications, I decided to quit and stay home with her. We can't have her get sick again. We don't know how badly a seemingly harmless flu could affect her. She has had stronger antibiotics and more medicines than most people have in a lifetime.
I am so happy I took the decision to stay home with her. Its been a fun first year. And I was fortunate to have been right there for every one of her major milestones. But as much as I loved this time home with her, I hope to start looking for work again some time next year. As young babies, they need you so much more. But now that she is getting more independent, I have a hard time keeping her busy and engaged.
I may be biased, but baby girl has been a very easy child so far. She has always slept very well. She has never been too fussy, and is pretty happy and content most of the time. She is a very cautious person, and approaches new toys and situations very carefully. Although she did have some stranger anxiety at first, she loves people now. She loves going out and meeting new people. However, she is wary of men, and prefers the company of women and children. Oh and she has no teeth yet! Not one! My mom said I got my first teeth at 14 months, so she probably takes after me. But that hasn't stopped her from gumming everything from pasta to beans, tortillas and chicken.
We have no big plans for a first birthday. The thought of her birthday brings mixed emotions in me. I am excited and happy, yet it brings back all the horrible memories of Nov 2011. I have read that moms of preemies have very similar emotions about first birthdays. I hope I am able to put it away, and make it a special day from baby girl....my brave warrior, my hero, my miracle. We love you so much.
I may have said this before, but the first month when she was in the hospital felt like a year, but after that. time just flew. It has also been almost a year since I left work. I started my maternity leave a year ago, but once we knew of her complications, I decided to quit and stay home with her. We can't have her get sick again. We don't know how badly a seemingly harmless flu could affect her. She has had stronger antibiotics and more medicines than most people have in a lifetime.
I am so happy I took the decision to stay home with her. Its been a fun first year. And I was fortunate to have been right there for every one of her major milestones. But as much as I loved this time home with her, I hope to start looking for work again some time next year. As young babies, they need you so much more. But now that she is getting more independent, I have a hard time keeping her busy and engaged.
I may be biased, but baby girl has been a very easy child so far. She has always slept very well. She has never been too fussy, and is pretty happy and content most of the time. She is a very cautious person, and approaches new toys and situations very carefully. Although she did have some stranger anxiety at first, she loves people now. She loves going out and meeting new people. However, she is wary of men, and prefers the company of women and children. Oh and she has no teeth yet! Not one! My mom said I got my first teeth at 14 months, so she probably takes after me. But that hasn't stopped her from gumming everything from pasta to beans, tortillas and chicken.
We have no big plans for a first birthday. The thought of her birthday brings mixed emotions in me. I am excited and happy, yet it brings back all the horrible memories of Nov 2011. I have read that moms of preemies have very similar emotions about first birthdays. I hope I am able to put it away, and make it a special day from baby girl....my brave warrior, my hero, my miracle. We love you so much.
Monday, September 3, 2012
Good bye Pump
Dear Ameda elite,
Thank you for being my constant companion the last 10 months, whether I liked it or not. You gave me company on many a long nights, when I had to sit and pump, while my child and hubby slept. We always had a love-hate relationship. As much as I hated you, I am still glad that with your help, I was able to give my baby breast milk for 10 months. But now that you are leaving, I am not going to miss you at all. I will be glad to get back the time that I once spent hooked to you, for something more useful - such as sleeping, or typing an email with two hands instead of one, or browsing using both hands. No more pumping, no more constant washing of pump parts. Although weaning has been more emotional than I imagined, I will try to take pride in having made it this far, and push away the guilt that I could have continued for just 2 more months to make it to a year. Good bye.
Keya
Thank you for being my constant companion the last 10 months, whether I liked it or not. You gave me company on many a long nights, when I had to sit and pump, while my child and hubby slept. We always had a love-hate relationship. As much as I hated you, I am still glad that with your help, I was able to give my baby breast milk for 10 months. But now that you are leaving, I am not going to miss you at all. I will be glad to get back the time that I once spent hooked to you, for something more useful - such as sleeping, or typing an email with two hands instead of one, or browsing using both hands. No more pumping, no more constant washing of pump parts. Although weaning has been more emotional than I imagined, I will try to take pride in having made it this far, and push away the guilt that I could have continued for just 2 more months to make it to a year. Good bye.
Keya
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